Stranger

You meet a stranger.
You can say that she is the kind of nice person.
She doesn't talk too much, maybe because you are so dominant?

This sounds to be so familiar.
You said that you wanna know her futher, but in the same time you take a lead at all over the conversation.
Then how could she has her time?

She can't reach you.
And is it her fault?
Is it her fault that she can't talk to you?

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Mata Mata

Kata orang mimpi itu adalah cerminan

Apa yang kau lihat saat tidurmu pertanda apa yang kau rasakan

Atau apa yang orang lain inginkan

Di kehidupanku, aku tak bisa membaca pikiranmu

Tapi ada mata mata ku

Karna setiap malam aku mendapatimu

Dalam mimpiku

Sering kali

Acap kali

Tidak hanya sekali

Tapi setiap hari

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When I was A Kid

When I was a kid, I wanna be a doctor, I wanna be a teacher, I wanna be a president.

When I was a kid, my imagination is so huge.

There is no limit where my imagination has to stop.

Because its never stop.

It has no ending.

When I was a kid, I love myself really much.

Im pretty sure, who I see in the mirror, is the luckiest person who have ever exist.

She is amazing, has beautiful smile, confident as well.

When I was a kid, all I do is just playing hide and seek from morning to evening.

Reading “majalah Bobo”.

Compete with my friends who is the fastest to take a shower.

Making an hotel from blanket and pillow, also pretend to be the most professional hotel manager in the world.

When I was a kid, I never scared about dreaming.

Because everyday is a new day to have a new dream.

I am a singer, a dancer, a teacher, an actress, a chef, a runner, an athlete, a designer, a richman.

I could be whoever I want, when I was a kid.

When I was a kid, I can see a secret basement in my house.

I can see a very big pool in my bathroom.

I can see the whole world while digging the earth.

I can see a bright future.

When I was a kid, I don’t know, that today, I will miss the day when I was a kid.

When I was a kid, I never have a vision, that today, I wanna back to that day when I was a kid.

When I was a kid, I have no fearness about tomorrow.

But today, at this very moment, I wish, I still be that kid, still be a little Nella, who has no limit in imagining herself.

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You play the game first.

But then you scared after messed up with me.

I know it!!!

You need me the most.

That's why you touch me again.

But i never be the same anymore.

I am faking all the things.

For you, who are too brave to mess up with me.

Bye then!

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I am Friendly to Everybody, But.......

Being so independent make me hate people who can't take care of their own business.

I am friendly to everybody, but i also making a wall that i wish not everybody could get inside my zone as much as they like.

My motto is "balance". I want everything being balance. Like eeeeeeeeeverything. Let me tell you this. If i don't wanna take adventage of you, or if i refuse something from you, or i never ask for your help, NOTE THIS, that means, i don't want you to take adventage of me, ask something from me, or even bothering me.

Please, please, understand it.

My circle, i just wanna live in my circle.
If you are not in my circle, just don't you dare to pass through my wall.
It's just not cool for me.

Listen, i have a very sensitive feeling. I could stand at the very front line to help you if you need for some helps. Sympathy? I have it. Empathy? I also have it. But sweetheart, sometimes, you don't have to ALWAYS rely to anybody for eeeeeeverything, right? I mean, a silly/unimportant/dumb thing that you actually can solve it by yourself, but you bothering me for that? Sweetheart, i don't have enough free time!

Sorry.

Being independent make me have this way of thinking.

Soooo, i wish, as you grow older, i wish you could be a better person who can take care of your business, respect other's time, and the most important thing: LEARN HOW TO BE MORE INDEPENDENT!

Remember, don't rely to anybody for everything. It's ANNOYING.

P.S: You are not in my circle :)

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I'm angry at us who don't understand each other.

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I feel like you are getting further
Are we fine?

Im tired of wondering my darling
If there is something happened,
Whatever it is, although its bad or even worst, tell me
Cause what you are doing in silence right now is really breaks me down

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Mornin Sunshine

Tadi malam aku bermimpi. Aku melihat diriku merayakan ulang tahunnya yang ke-30 dengan begitu bahagia. Banyak orang yang hadir di sana. Aku berdiri sebagai seorang motivator yang dikagumi mereka semua.

Dalam kata sambutan, aku mengatakan: "morniiiiiiiinnnnnnn."

Lalu mereka menjawab: "mornin sunshine."

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Me

You said you miss me.
So do i.
I miss me.

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Bukannya kau yang butuh aku setelah dewasa?

Ada teman yang suka kamu. Kita bertiga naik sebuah kendaraan yang aku pun tak tahu itu kendaraan apa. Kau yang mengemudi, aku di tengah, dia di belakang.

Aku tanya dia, "Do you love him?"

Dia tersipu malu, dan aku cuma bisa tertawa di belakangmu.

Aku jawab, "Nanti kita bicarakan setelah sampai di tempat tujuan."

Lalu di suatu tempat kau berhenti. Kurasa itu pasar. Kulihat banyak orang yang lalu lalang. Kau menoleh ke arahku, dan bilang, "Jangan kau jodohkan aku dengan dia. Bukannya kau yang butuh aku setelah dewasa?"

Aku langsung merasa seperti begitu kecil. Aku tertunduk dan seperti menyadari bahwa aku sebenarnya tak pernah mau kehilanganmu.

Setelah itu aku terbangun. Lagi-lagi aku bermimpi. 

"Cuma mimpi," kataku dalam hati sambil mengingat wajahmu yang kurindukan. 

Aku senang. Setidaknya kau menyadari bahwa aku membutuhkanmu.

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